5 Stages

  1. Denial
  2. "I just missed the first song. No way is it over."
    "And for our last song. This is called 'Summertime'." (insert expletives and hysteria here)
  3. Anger
  4. "Why did they go first?! Shouldn't they have been second? I mean, Jed Madela? COME ON."
  5. Bargaining
  6. "Maybe if I didn't have that burger..."
    "Maybe they'll have a secret show somewhere? Please, please, please..."
  7. Depression
  8. I spent the entire Sunday under the covers save for some Internet break and a cup of ice cream. It almost felt like I had just broken up with someone. I didn't want to talk, I just wanted to cry. No, scratch that. I wanted to die.
    Come on, my friend sent this message to me: You'll get over it, it will just take a bit of time I guess.
  9. Acceptance
  10. Today, I have not stopped listening to their songs. I have started to laugh at my "depression." And more importantly, I am out of my room and eating.

Who would've thought it would hit me this hard?!


Destination: beautiful

Who would have thought that after almost two years after this, I will actually get to see MAE perform live?

Me with Jacob Marshall, MAE's drummer.

So what if they're playing just five songs tonight? So what if they're not even the main act? My heart is really dancing on air because never in a million years did I think I'd get to see one of my favorite bands live, much less meet them. Like they said at the press con yesterday, it's been a long time coming. I'm sure there are lots of fans who are thrilled that they're finally here. I know I am. It's like college all over again. (:

Here's hoping they play "Embers and Envelopes" tonight. I think I might cry.

Happy birthday to me. (:


New shoes

Hey, I put some new shoes on and suddenly everything's right
I said hey, I put some new shoes on and everyone's smiling, it's so inviting
Oh, short on money but long on time
Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine
And I'm running late and I don't need an excuse
'Cause I'm wearing my brand new shoes

Pizza lunch at the office with the sweetest Candy Girls, surprise gifts, and dinner with the family. Doesn't really take much to make a birthday happy. (: