Stop this train

Two years ago, I stopped celebrating my birthday with a party. But my friends apparently had birthday party withdrawal and a boy had just broken my heart, so they threw me a surprise party. They told me, my birthday party was already a ritual (I've been having it since I turned 16.), a reunion. I couldn't not have it.

Last year, I cried on my birthday week. Cried every day of the week. Something about turning 25 depressed me. I don't know why. (I'm over that, don't worry.)

Fast forward to tonight, the eve of my 26th birthday, I am neither happy or sad. I guess, I'm grateful at best. November started out great for me and the blessings just keep on pouring. But part of me misses the time when two weeks before my birthday, I'd list down all my guests (which my mom would take and plan a menu around) and compose a text message to send out the weekend before the party. Mommy loved entertaining at home—no matter how much she'd rant while preparing for it. She'd prepare pasta with three different kind of sauces one year, and her yummy lasagna the next. We'd have a garage-full of people and back in high school, my friends and I would walk once around the village park and talk.

Now, I didn't even think of doing anything for my birthday. Not even lunch or dinner with family. All I really want to do is spend a few hours tomorrow with Mommy. Then, maybe bake myself birthday cupcakes.


All I Want...

Because Stephie said it was fun, I'm posting a wish list, too. And none of that "world peace" cheesy stuff. A real materialistic wish list, with things I probably won't get, but look nice on the computer screen.

Hahaha. And if I'm lucky enough, maybe some kind soul will stumble upon this page and get something from the list for me. Hey, my birthday's coming up and Christmas is just around the corner!

  1. Nice 8-inch springform pans

    Because I think it's time I ventured into cakes. (: And my mom's square Pyrex dishes just don't make for pretty cake shapes. Haha.

  2. Cupcake pans

    The muffin tins I use now are shallow and wide. I want my cupcakes to be tall and not punggok.

  3. Stainless cookie scooper

    Because the one I have now is plastic and well, sometimes, the dough gets too tough for it—especially when I chill the dough overnight. I'm scared it'll just break one day.

  4. The Wilton Master Tip Set

    Because the frosting possibilities are endless!

  5. Cupcake Courier

    Can you imagine how easier and fuss-free it'll be to carry my cupcakes in this?

  6. The Golden Half

    I think it's a really cute camera and quite efficient, too! It can stretch a roll of 24 into 48 pictures. How awesome is that?

  7. A cute umbrella

    Like this one from pare*umbrella. I always end up borrowing umbrellas from my officemates because I don't have my own.

  8. Onitsuka Tigers tokidoki edition

    I'm a Nike girl at heart, but these are the cutest pair of sneaks ever!!!

  9. Windrunner in Pink and Gold

    I honestly don't know what use I have for it, since I don't really run or I'm not sporty in general. But I love how it looks!

  10. A long, gray cardi

  11. A pretty dress

    One can never have too many dresses. (:

  12. Ribbed tank tops

    I want them in all the colors of the rainbow. And in white, black, and gray. d:

  13. YakPak Zephyr in White Multi Unicorn

    Because it's cuuute! :D

  14. A laptop

    Not necessarily this one. Or not necessarily a laptop, even! I just want my own computer so I don't have to wrestle with my brother when we're both at home. Haha! I told myself, I'll save up for one even if it kills me!
See, I'm not that hard to please. HAHAHA!