Quarter life something

I am penniless. Or at least that will happen if I empty out my account. Because even if I get my money back, as my mother has kindly reminded, it'll be gone as long as it's in my wallet. I think that's why I keep my money in the bank and not withdraw everything like most people do.

It sucks.

You know, I wish I could give everything that my parents ask for from me. But what about me? I can't be the piggy bank that kept on giving. I can't. No matter how hard I try to be a good daughter and just give them money when they need it, I can't because my money doesn't seem to last. I've been working for almost three years now and I have squat. I've saved nothing. Just enough for the occasional trip, just enough for my food, just enough for a pair of shoes every six months (or even an entire year), just enough until the the next payday.

And people wonder why I'm so terrified of turning twenty-five. Duuuude, I'm twenty-five, still living with my parents with no savings. Tell me that's worth celebrating. Except for the part that I have my parents, I don't know what to celebrate. That I am in a position by default because my previous position was an "error?" That I am like in high school and my salary is like my allowance? That I really have no choice but to keep giving everything I have because I owe my parents everything?

I am not very hard to please, which is why I seem happy even with all of this crap. Because I do find a way to be happy. It's just that, I wish I didn't have to try so hard to keep myself happy.

So should I give the last of my money to pay for yet another one of the many bills that need to be paid right now? Because it's the "right" thing to do?


  1. I pay majority of the bills too. It's driving me crazy. I'm 27, I still live with my parents, I have no savings AT ALL.

    I don't even know if I'm still being fair to myself,

  2. Okay lang yan, Dannette. Good karma kasi good kids tayo. Hehe!

  3. ako naman, i feel like i should be helping with the medical bills and all, pero di ko talaga kaya sa sobrang mahal. it makes me feel like a bad kid somehow.

    maybe macy's fields would help for your savings? :) i'd like to try some if i can!

  4. Frances: Yeah, but I'd have to spend din muna before I can get that going. Haha! Ang hirap ng walang pera. Waaaaaahhhh!

  5. That's true! But don't worry, Mace...it will come back to you a hundredfold :)maybe not at this time, but in the future. I can relate as I've been the sole breadwinner of my family since I started working in October 1999 back in the Senate and until now that i'm working here in Canada, I still have no savings for myself. I'm not kidding...LOL! :P Hopefully, next year I pray I'd be able to save for my own and my future, too. But u know what, being able to send all my siblings to school to get their College diploma is my greatest fulfillment as a Single. Though i'm penniless at the age of 28, I feel happy & fulfilled. =)But of course, i also wanted to get married and have a family of my own...and i need to save $$$ for that. ;)

  6. Ate Jan: Yeah, I know that. (: Just helps to rant about it once in a while.


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