10.20.2007

Quarter life something

I am penniless. Or at least that will happen if I empty out my account. Because even if I get my money back, as my mother has kindly reminded, it'll be gone as long as it's in my wallet. I think that's why I keep my money in the bank and not withdraw everything like most people do.

It sucks.

You know, I wish I could give everything that my parents ask for from me. But what about me? I can't be the piggy bank that kept on giving. I can't. No matter how hard I try to be a good daughter and just give them money when they need it, I can't because my money doesn't seem to last. I've been working for almost three years now and I have squat. I've saved nothing. Just enough for the occasional trip, just enough for my food, just enough for a pair of shoes every six months (or even an entire year), just enough until the the next payday.

And people wonder why I'm so terrified of turning twenty-five. Duuuude, I'm twenty-five, still living with my parents with no savings. Tell me that's worth celebrating. Except for the part that I have my parents, I don't know what to celebrate. That I am in a position by default because my previous position was an "error?" That I am like in high school and my salary is like my allowance? That I really have no choice but to keep giving everything I have because I owe my parents everything?

I am not very hard to please, which is why I seem happy even with all of this crap. Because I do find a way to be happy. It's just that, I wish I didn't have to try so hard to keep myself happy.

So should I give the last of my money to pay for yet another one of the many bills that need to be paid right now? Because it's the "right" thing to do?

6 comments:

  1. I pay majority of the bills too. It's driving me crazy. I'm 27, I still live with my parents, I have no savings AT ALL.

    I don't even know if I'm still being fair to myself,

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  2. Okay lang yan, Dannette. Good karma kasi good kids tayo. Hehe!

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  3. ako naman, i feel like i should be helping with the medical bills and all, pero di ko talaga kaya sa sobrang mahal. it makes me feel like a bad kid somehow.

    maybe macy's fields would help for your savings? :) i'd like to try some if i can!

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  4. Frances: Yeah, but I'd have to spend din muna before I can get that going. Haha! Ang hirap ng walang pera. Waaaaaahhhh!

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  5. That's true! But don't worry, Mace...it will come back to you a hundredfold :)maybe not at this time, but in the future. I can relate as I've been the sole breadwinner of my family since I started working in October 1999 back in the Senate and until now that i'm working here in Canada, I still have no savings for myself. I'm not kidding...LOL! :P Hopefully, next year I pray I'd be able to save for my own and my future, too. But u know what, being able to send all my siblings to school to get their College diploma is my greatest fulfillment as a Single. Though i'm penniless at the age of 28, I feel happy & fulfilled. =)But of course, i also wanted to get married and have a family of my own...and i need to save $$$ for that. ;)

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  6. Ate Jan: Yeah, I know that. (: Just helps to rant about it once in a while.

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