Survey time (nicked from LJ)

1. How old will you be in five years?
29 (eek!)

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
Mia, Mimi, Marla, Margaux (oooh all Ms!), and Ray. I was eating Chowking takeout with Mim at the Candy area.

3. How tall are you?
Last time I checked I was 5'2" and 1/4. Haha! I hope to God I'm 5'3" na!

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
A surf party with my adventure buddies. (:

5. What's the last movie you saw?
In the cinema? I don't remember. ):

6. Who was the last person you called?
Last call I made was last Saturday. I called the driver to pick me up from a shoot in Eastwood.

7. Who was the last person to call you?
Tonight, a missed call from the driver to let me know that he's there already.

8. What was the last text message you received?
"Hahaha. Cge. Yay" from Candice replying to my "I'll pay you tom for the board shorts. Super perfect fit haha!" text.

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
I don't have voice mail.

10. Do you prefer to call or text?
Text, actually. Hehe!

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?
Sleeping, I think.

12. Are your parents married/divorced?
Married (:

13. When did you last see your mom?
Just two minutes ago, asking me about my health card. I keep forgetting to ask about it. /:

14. What color are your eyes?
Dark brown.

15. What time did you wake up today?
7am

16. What are you wearing right now?
The shirt I was wearing all day and black shorts. I'm too lazy to change my shirt. Maybe later before I go to bed.

17. What's your favorite Christmas song?
Haha. Mariah Carey's "All I Want For Christmas." d:

18. Where is your favorite place to be?
Here at home. I'm sooo lazy. Or maybe the beach.

19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
In the car, driving. Haha! Told you I'm lazy.

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?
I'd really like to go to New York. And Canada. And LA. I miss my friends. ):

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
I hope I've met the love of my life if I'm not yet married by then. d:

22. Do you tan or burn?
Depending on the length of exposure hehe!

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
I think I was afraid of things coming out from under my bed. Eek!

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
Mimi getting kilig over a text. Yihee!

25. How many TVs do you have in your house?
Five.

26. How big is your bed?
I think it's queen-sized.

27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
Both.

28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
Uh, definitely with.

29. What color are your sheets?
Right now it's some variation of floral prints. But generally, white.

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
There are four pillows on my bed but I really sleep with just two.

31. What is your favorite season?
Summer because I can go to the beach, but I also love almost-rainy days. When it's just the right kind of gloomy. (Is there even such a thing!?)

33. What do you like about winter?
I don't know what it's like.

34. What do you like about the summer?
The beeeeeach.

35. What do you like about spring?
I really only know two seasons: summer and rainy.

36. How many states/provinces have you lived in?
Just Metro Manila.

37. What cities/towns have you lived in?
Marikina and Q to the C.

38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Shoesies.

39. Are you a social person?
It really depends on who I'm being social with.

40. What was the last thing you ate?
Asado siopao and Nai cha from Chowking.

41. What is your favorite restaurant?
Parang I don't have a favorite.

42. What is your favorite ice cream?
Coffee Crumble from Arce Dairy. Mmm.

43. What is your favorite dessert?
Anything with chocolate.

44. What is your favorite kind of soup?
Chicken noodle? Hehe!

45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
I used to make PB & J sandwiches with Good Shepherd Strawberry Syrup. Mmm.

46. Do you like Chinese food?
Not a big fan, but I really love the baked rice in Mr. Choi's.

47. Do you like coffee?
I do and I'm not really picky. I can live with 3-in-1 mixes.

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
I should really drink more. I rarely finish the water in my tumbler that I bring to work.

49. What do you drink in the morning?
Water. Sometimes, coffee or orange juice (I love Harvey's Orange Juice!)

51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
I always sleep on the left side. All my junk's on the other side.

52. Do you know how to play poker?
Yes. Well, sort of. I still need coaching.

53. Do you like to cuddle?
Haha, yeah, I guess. d:

54. Do you have an addictive personality?
Well, I hope I do!

56. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Eat out only because of work.

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
My grade school guidance counselor, my batchmate, and my batchmate's sister.

59. Do you want kids?
Of course. I actually want twins—one boy and one girl. Para isang pagbubuntis na lang.

60. Do you speak any other languages?
Just English and Filipino. I studied French as my foreign language in college and even took lessons from the Missionaries in Assumption. Those years of studying just left me with: Bonjour, Bon soir, Salut, Comment t'appelle tu? Comment ca va? J'emappelle Macy, et toi? and a bunch of random French words that I don't know how to string together. Hahaha! So much for that.

61. Have you ever gotten stitches?
Never.

62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Nope but I saw one when my daddy got a seizure a year after his aneurysm. It scared me to death.

63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
Ocean because you'll tan better. Haha!

64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?
Any seat will do.

65. Do you know how to drive stick?
Yup. I actually like it better than driving automatic. I got scared the first time I drove an automatic. Haha!

66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Food. d:

67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
Except when I sleep, my pearl earrings.

68. What is your favorite TV show?
Gilmore Girls, Grey's Anatomy, Heroes, House, M.D., Veronica Mars, and a bunch of other shows listed in my Friendster profile. Haha!

69. Can you roll your tongue?
Yup and I can turn it into a three-leaf clover. Seriously!

70. Who is the funniest person you know?
I have lots of friends who can be comedians!

71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Well my headboard is overflowing with stuffed toys.

72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
Esthero's "Everyday is a Holiday"

73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
Maybe not clothes but the purple slippers that I still wear now were the slippers I've had since I was in fourth grade.

74. What red object is closest to you right now?
A MYX button pin.

75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?
Yup.

76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Eh? Actually, they're open right now. Haha!

77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
Yikes, maybe a big bear? I'd probably have a bigger chance of outrunning it than a swarm of bees.

78. Do you flirt a lot?
I don't think I know how. d:

79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Kecap manis but we've run out.

80. What is your favorite food?
Chicken pork adobo, Nutella (haha, yes, I consider it food). Lately, Kung Pao Chicken from Pho Hoa, BBQ Bacon and Cheese Burger from BK, and Smackers from Penny Brown (Choco Peanut and Milk Choco Cookies and Pistachio ice cream. Yum!).

81. Can you change the oil on a car?
Nope.

82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
No, I drive so slow! Haha! They'd probably give me a slowing ticket. (Ngeee.)

83. Have you ever run out of gas?
No, not yet.

84. What is your usual bedtime?
10pm? I sleep really early. But these days, I sleep after PBB. Hahaha!

85. What was the last book you read?
Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit by Jeanette Winterson.

86. Do you read the newspaper?
Yes but only the lifestyle and entertainment sections. Haha! Occasionally, the front page.

87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
Nope, I don't.

89. Do you watch soap operas?
Not lately.

90. Do you dance in the car?
No.

91. What radio station did you last listen to?
I don't remember but it was probably either 88.3, 89.1, or 89.9.

92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you?
There's no picture frame near me.

93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?
Notes from this afternoon's meeting.

94. What is your favorite candle scent?
Lavender or vanilla.

95. What is your favorite board game?
Pictionary? I don't know.

97. When was the last time you attended church?
Sunday afternoon at the village chapel with my two younger brothers.

98. Who was your favorite teacher in high school?
This is so bad. Was high school that long ago? Or wala lang talaga akong favorite? Eek. Ms. Roux, maybe. (:

99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
Overnight.

100. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you?
Kaich found my camera! <333 Thanks, thanks!

It's late and I'm feeling so tired

I'm sleepy but my silly obsession with reality shows is keeping me up. I'm screaming at the TV—obviously not heeding my own advice. Hahaha! It's hilarious that I'm annotating the show for Mikko, who is all the way in New York but still very much addicted to the show.

Just heard now: Kim Atienza saying "BFF" in a telecom commercial. Whaaaat. BFF?! Seriously. Hahahaha! First it was "kering-keri," now this. What is the world coming to?

Reality Bites

I'm a sucker for reality shows. I remember when ETC was introduced to cable, I was in reality show heaven. I even got hooked on this really lame show, Starting Over. As in at first, I'd just watch it if there was nothing to watch but the next thing I knew, I was watching even the reruns. Hahaha! I tried watching the season that's on air now but parang the best pa rin yung first. I loved the drama! Whether it was scripted or not, who cares? :P I watch it for its entertainment value.

I even used to watch Blind Date and Third Wheel. Hahaha! I'm so gross! :P

Whenever some reality show is on ETC or 2nd Avenue, I watch it. Even if I have no idea what it is. There was one show I watched. Unanimous was the title, I think? Haha, they had to decide on who they'd vote out and while they did this, the money they were going to win went lower and lower by the second. HAHA! I don't know how it ended because I never got to see another episode. But geez, I hope they didn't get like just $10 or something. I mean all that trouble for ten bucks? :P

Another show I really enjoyed watching was Top Chef. I'm not sure when the finale is because I don't know the schedule. I just end up catching it on random days like last Saturday morning. I'm rooting for Harold. Wait, was that his name? I don't even know.

Lately (as in just yesterday haha), I've been getting obsessed with PBB again. I stopped watching because it was on so late and it was getting pretty stupid. I mean, come on, bringing in people back in the house when they were already voted out? Doesn't that defy the laws of the PBB house? No contact with the outside world and all that shiz. Is that what they call reinvention? But yesterday, as I was snooping around our site's message board, I stumbled upon the PBB thread. It was littered with comments against Bruce and Wendy and links to YouTube videos from the live stream of PBB. I watched them all. >_< If you've seen the videos that I'm talking about, you'll be equally as annoyed as I am. So I watched again last night after a long time of not doing so. Hohoho. Things in the House are exciting but only because the people inside are fighting. Is this really necessary for entertainment? To pit people against each other and bring out the worst in everyone? I must admit, I'm having a ball rooting for a particular side (Go, Team Geeann!), but it really does bring out the worst in people. I've been reading posts on message boards and the words that they say about these people they don't really even know are unbelievable.

That's not to say I won't watch tonight. I just hope some people would realize that at the end of the day it's a freaking TV show. Don't get caught up in it!

Group yourselves into...

When I was in fourth grade, I was a "line leader." Yes, I was one of them. The people who shout at the end of recess and lunch: one, two, three, four!—and everyone would race their arms in front, then down, then "hands at the back" as they quietly shuffled into the classroom.

When there was a group project assigned, and we were supposed to pick a leader, all fingers would point to me. And I usually expected it, already armed with my list of ideas of what we'd do.

Back then, whenever we'd have group dialogues (sometimes those were really just a reason to get out of class), my friends would always complain about my bossiness. Me, bossy? I'd always rationalize my way out of it and they'd agree. Haha, talk about being really bossy!

When I was in college, I hated group projects. I never wanted to head anything because I was worried about non-active group members (read: freeloaders!). I eventually got assigned to be an officer for both of my orgs. What a nightmare! It was so much harder than our third year investigatory project (which won in our Science Congress, btw. haha!). I was handling money for both orgs (one as Marketing head, and one as Finance Officer). For some reason, the bossy me was nowhere to be found! I managed to pull through and even cited examples from my experiences whenever I got asked in job interviews about working with a group.

You know, I used to think I liked being in a group better than working alone. But really, being a leader in a group sort of feels like you're working alone if you do all the work by yourself. It all depends on your team. I guess I've just been lucky most of the time.

1982

Mikko has given me space since the time she got her first domain. So I thought it was an injustice not to use the space she's given me. I used to house my blog over at her domain but when it expired, I moved back to Blogspot.

Since my old files were transferred to InkSmudges.com, I figured, why not rehash the site? 1982 was supposed to be a place for my "portfolio" but what would I put in it? My 10 years worth of "personal websites?" Hahaha! Yikes. I don't think I want to show everyone my past layouts—the ones plastered with 10 different pictures of myself blended together with Photoshop.

Haha, gross. Roch and I were laughing about it some weeks ago. We sort of miss the old web neighborhood. We changed layouts practically every week and everyone knew each other. Now, almost everyone has ditched their personal websites and moved on with life (haha!). A few of us still manage to keep an LJ or a blog. And how funny is it that Roch and I are actually working together now? Haha! Dun din pala ang bagsak.

ANYWAY. Nothing's really up except for the 55 word fiction section. And even that is so old. Last entry was 2006—and OMG, what a cheesy topic. Haha! Not to mention, a very gross picture that I'm so glad cannot be seen clearly. d:

It hurts but it may be the only way

I'm not very adaptable to change, I've realized not so long ago. I'm good at convincing myself that I am but I'm really not. I try my best to act like it doesn't matter but every little thing gets to me.

When I was still in that show where I used to work, I was terrified when our team of four was suddenly just, well, me. I was going to be in charge of the work that was used to be done by four people. FOUR is totally not equal to one. When I finally got the hang of it, they announced that there would be two more people to join the team. Whaaat. I couldn't let go of my responsibilities. I had this constant urge to do more than what I was told to do—sometimes forgetting that other people are supposed to take care of them. I don't know if it's arrogance (haha, it probably is) but I was always scared that if something didn't go as planned, I would want to know how to explain why it didn't. And clearly, if I didn't do it, I wouldn't know how to explain that. (Now that I think about it, though, it sounds kind of dumb.)

Anyway, I had a feeling it would happen again this time around. A different job, there's no team, but I have the same feeling of not letting go. Of things I've been doing for more than a year now. But I think I'm slowly learning that this is part of the job. I can't go on doing everything by myself! (Hello, that's impossible.) And it's possible not to do everything by yourself but still know how to explain when things go wrong.

It's kind of strange that it still feels like more work now more than ever. (Haha, I used to have some time in between to do LJ-surfing. d: Now, it's just switching tabs of all Candy-related pages.) But this isn't me complaining. I'm actually happy that this job is still a huge challenge for me. I was scared that after a year, I'd get tired of it. I'm so happy that I'm not.

P.S.
Parang walang connect yung title ng entry ko sa sinulat ko. Hahaha! I just really, really like this song right now. And diba it hurts to let go? Labo. Give it a listen. (:

I ♥ Candy

After three months of obsessing, it's finally up. I still can't stop obsessing. Refreshing every other second, making sure all the links work—even working on a Saturday to make sure that everything's in order. (Well, okay, we were required to. Haha!)

Even after my LSE moment this past week, I can't help but feel proud when I read how much the girls love it. ♥ And, for a few minutes, nothing else matters. The job has been done. I guess that's all there should be to it.

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They're just titles, is what I should be telling myself. But can you blame me for feeling this way? Maybe I should just let it go.